Good News, Bad News

My thoughts are incoherent now, sorry if this entry will confuse you.

I turned a year older last week. Like what a lot people are saying, a year older, a year wiser.  Just a few days after my birthday I met a new pozzie.  Since the day I found out about my HIV status, promised myself that I will try to to reach out and help someone who is need. I am not rich, but I wholeheartedly offer myself as friend and a brother to someone who is lost and confused. I am happy that I gained this person’s trust. But really saddened by the fact that there’s a new HIV case. Actually, barely two weeks since the start of the year, I have already met two new pozzies. And I would like to thank them for sharing their stories with me and for trusting me. 

Last weekend, I had my first out of town trip for the year and my first “gimik”. Tired from the out of town trip, I rested for a few hours before heading to the house party. Since morning, I am actually feeling uneasy due to mild chest pains. But my alter-ego – the “I am super fine” me, is saying that everything will be fine and that I have nothing to worry about. And so after a few hours of resting, I went to the party. I had my first taste of alcohol after almost one year of abstinence. I had vodka – alcohol kicked in. But I still know what I am doing, I got home safe. Thanks to the new friends and for the ride home. 

Chest pains became intolerable. I had fever last Sunday. I wasn’t able to report for work yesterday. I needed to be rushed to the ER due to the pain and to do all the lab tests to rule out any heart problem and that it is only muscle spasm/stress. So after almost 4 hours in the hospital, I was finally sent home. All the lab tests were normal. Meds for pain and muscle relaxants were given, which I have to take for a week. Tomorrow, I will see my Doctor in SAGIP. 

Rounding up the first two weeks of 2012, here are some good and bad news:

Good News: I celebrated my birthday. I was able to reach out to other people – pozzies thru my blog and twitter. I have touched a life and hopefully am an inspiration to others. Once again, I felt the love and caring of my parents. Dad accompanied me to the hospital in the morning; Mom never left my side the entire time I was in the ER. They’re the most wonderful parents. I couldn’t ask for more. I feel guilty though, for not telling them my real health status. But like what we usually say, “What they don’t know, won’t hurt them”. 

Bad News: First taste of ER for 2012 and hoping that no more hospital visits again for the year except for the regular checkups with my Doctor from SAGIP. 

Here’s wishing for more good news for all of us this coming year.